Random Thoughts

Ok it's 10.40pm and I feel like doing a blog post as there is so much going round my head! 

I can't seem to get over how awesome God is! He is incredible! I love listening to worship songs because they are so meaningful and powerful to me, it's how I connect with God I guess.

Although I have been through a rather sucky year, I need to remember that GOD NEVER LEFT ME... I struggled with that for a while, and still do to be quite honest but I need to keep reminding myself of the truth.

I've had a few days in the past week where I've felt like I was being attacked, I had bad days where everything seemed to go wrong and I've felt really depressed and upset, putting myself down all the time. I just don't feel adequate sometimes. 

But the song above - Jesus Paid It All is one of my favourites! Just because of the emotional connection I get with it! I don't know why it's just a very meaningful song to me! It's very uplifting, and powerful!

"JESUS PAID IT ALL" - It just sums it all up really!!

Right, that's got a few things of my mind!

God Bless

Sarah xx

Something I read that made me cry... not for the faint hearted!

Ok, I've read this a few times but today I read it on another blog that I'm following (an awesome blog!) and it really hit me... I mean after the Amanda Todd story, people have been talking about suicide more as it brought it to our attention. It's awful even to think about that someone would feel the need to end their lives.

This is for all you guys reading this who feel so depressed that you feel the need to punish yourself...

Remember one thing, 

"'For I know the plans I have for you,' declares the Lord, 'plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.'" (Jeremiah 29:11-13, NIV)

GOD CARES.... 

I'll let you read this now...

"Want to kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You’re just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, and take out that suicide note you've written and rewritten over and over and over. You take out your razor blades, and cut for the very last time. You grab that bottle of pills and take them all. Laying down, holding the letter, you close your eyes for the very last time. A few hours later, your little brother knocks on your door to come tell you dinners ready. You don’t answer, so he walks in. All he sees is you lying on your bed, so he thinks you’re asleep. He tells your mom. Your mom goes to your room to wake you up. She notices something is odd. She grabs the paper in your hand and reads it. Sobbing, she tries to wake you up. She’s screaming your name. Your brother, so confused, runs to go tell your dad that “Mommy is crying and sissy won’t wake up.” Your dad runs to your room. He looks at your mom, who is crying, holding the letter to her chest, sitting next to your lifeless body. It hits him. He realises what’s going on and he screams. He screams and throws something at the wall. And then, falling to his knees, he starts to cry. Your mom crawls over to him, and they sit there, holding each other, crying. The next day at school, there’s an announcement. The principal tells everyone about your suicide. It takes a few seconds for it to sink in, and once it does, everyone goes silent. Everyone blames themselves. Your teachers think they were too hard on you. Those mean popular girls, they think of all the things they’ve said to you. That boy that used to tease you and call you names, he can’t help but hate himself for never telling you how beautiful you really are. Your ex-boyfriend, the one that you told everything to, that broke up with you...he can’t handle it. He breaks down and starts crying, and runs out of the school. Your friends? They’re sobbing too, wondering how they could never see that anything was wrong, and wishing they could have helped you before it was too late. And your best friend? She’s in shock. She can’t believe it. She knew what you were going through, but she never thought it would get that bad…bad enough for you to end it. She can’t cry; she can’t feel anything. She’s numb. She stands up, walks out of the classroom, and just sinks to the floor. Shaking, screaming, but no tears coming out. It’s a few days later, at your funeral. The whole town came. Everyone knew you, that girl with the bright smile and bubbly personality. The one that was always there for them, the shoulder to cry on. Lots of people talk about all the good memories they had with you, there were a lot. Everyone’s crying, your little brother still doesn’t know you killed yourself, he’s too young. Your parents just said you died. It hurts him, a lot. You were his big sister, you were supposed to always be there for him. Your best friend, she stays strong through the entire service, but as soon as they startlowering your casket into the ground, she just loses it. She cries and cries and doesn’t stop for days. It’s two years later. The whole school talks to a counsellor/therapist at least once a week. Your teachers all quit their job. Those mean girls have eating disorders now. That boy that used to tease you cuts himself. Your ex-boyfriend doesn’t know how to love anymore and just sleeps around with girls. Your friends all go into depression. Your best friend? She tried to kill herself. She didn’t succeed like you did, but she tried…your brother? He finally found out the truth about your death. He self-harms, he cries at night, he does exactly what you did for years leading up to your suicide. Your parents? Their marriage fell apart. Your dad became a workaholic to distract himself from your death. Your mom got diagnosed with depression and just lies in bed all day. People care. You may not think so, but they do. Your choices don’t just affect you. They affect everyone. Don’t end your life; you have so much to live for. Things can’t get better if you give up. I’m here for absolutely anyone that needs to talk, no matter who you are."

God Bless

Sarah 

xx

What does the future hold?

Hiya, so on Sunday evening I came home from church and after having tea got involved in a very deep conversation about Heaven and Hell. It was quite heavy but brilliant to get questions out into the open that had been on my mind for a while.

One thing that became clearer was this verse: 

"Then I saw a new heaven and a new earth, for the first heaven and the first earth had passed away, and there was no longer any sea." Revelation 21:1

I've always thought of Heaven being out of our time but no one knows where it is. However one thing that really made me think was talking about restricting Heaven, by giving it a limit. We assume that heaven is above us - in the sky but that means that it has a level where it stops and that is limiting God. Why do we do that? 

The idea of Judgement Day has also always confused me as I've never really been told much about it. I wasn't sure if I was meant to believe in it. I thought that I either believed in souls going straight to Heaven and being with God or that the dead remain in the ground until Judgement Day when God will Judge the dead and send them to either Heaven and Hell.

However I have now learnt and am beginning to understand the idea of God creating a new Heaven and new  Earth. I still believe that when someone dies and if they have given their life to Jesus then their soul will go to Heaven to live with God UNTIL the final judgement day. There will be a time when Jesus returns and will raise the dead and judge both the dead and the living. The current Heaven will be brought down to the current Earth and all will be judged. Then the first heaven and first earth will pass away. 

With regards to where Heaven is I believe that it is completely outside of time as God is eternal and too outside of time so it is irrelevant. 

However despite not being able to understand everything, one thing I do believe is that there is place in Heaven with MY name on it, and your name too if you have given your life to Jesus. Now I'm not saying that I am a "perfect Christian" and therefore I have a place in Heaven because I am most certainly not! But it is God's grace that has given me a place. I don't deserve it, none of us do. We are sinners. But Jesus died so that these sins can be forgiven. He did all the hard work for us! "IT IS FINISHED" That truly means that the debt has been paid, it's done and Jesus is waiting for me in Heaven.

So even though death is a scary thing to think about, let your hope of Heaven overcome this fear as there is nothing to be scared about when you are going to be with your Saviour.

Remember:

"He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away." Revelation 21:4

There are still things that I am unsure about and I guess I will not know until I get there but please if there is anything I missed or that you believe please comment below or email me :)  I would love to hear other people's views!!

God Bless

Sarah 

xx

It's Been A While...

Ok, hey, I know I haven't written in a while but I've had a lot on, getting back into school, finding and starting a new job and getting over the 1 year anniversary of Mum's death as well as trying to get back on track with everything. But yeah, some things were going well, I went to France twice over the holidays, once for a holiday and the other time for Spring Harvest, a Christian holiday camp. I went with some friends from church and I really enjoyed it, met some lovely people too!

Things are going well, I mean, I get good days and bad days but doesn't everyone, however I've found lately that I've been really disconnected with God, I can't hear him, or feel him, I feel like he's just disappeared on me, I know he hasn't but it feels that way and it sucks! I'd describe it as a wall between me and God. A big concrete brick wall that I can't get through, I can't break it down.

I read somewhere that depression does that to you, you pray but with depression you feel no one's listening to you and you can't focus so you stop praying, you read the Bible, but depression means you can't concentrate and the Bible can be hard to digest sometimes, you can't connect with it so you stop reading and finally you try to worship, but with depression it's hard to be around people and act all "happy" and "brave" and you can't concentrate enough to feel and focus on God.

This is exactly how I feel... Although I feel quite vulnerable telling you readers this... but it's true, I feel extremely far away from God. I can't personally connect with him anymore...

I also find it hard to show emotion in front of people like at church... I so want to just burst into tears but I can't, so it just builds up until I'm alone and then I feel even worse because I'm isolated...

During my church service on Sunday night, someone said that they felt someone in the church was feeling angry and disappointed in God... that was me, maybe there were others there, but I was one of them. I guess I'm angry and disappointed in God because of all the rubbish I've been through this last year or so. But the thing is, I never admitted it to anyone, and maybe I should have, so I've been left to dwell on it all week and it hurts...

That's definitely something I need to work on, asking for help when I need it. I guess I don't like being a pain to other people, but sometimes I need to just dump all my problems on someone else which isn't fair on them.

So yeah to sum up, the last few weeks, I've felt far away from God and I don't quite know how to resolve it.

I made the image above to kind of show this feeling...

Ta x

Happy Birthday Nanny!! <3 xxx

Nanny knew I was there with her every step of the way.

I am dedicating this post to my Nanny, Doris. Sadly she passed away 8 months ago. This week on Thursday 19th July, it would be her 93rd birthday and I miss her very much, everyday.


We were always very close and I loved her dearly. Nanny gave up everything for my Mum after my Grandfather died when Mum was only 9 years old. She became a single mother and held down two jobs doing everything she could to look after her daughter. I have always been so proud of her for doing this but never liked to hear stories of her suffering. I couldn't bear to see her ill especially during her final days. She didn't deserve to suffer in this horrible way. But I knew that soon she was going to a better place, to be with her husband, daughter and Saviour. 


I loved spending time with Nanny, I always felt safe with her, I knew she would do anything for me and would always be there for me. She taught me so much especially about her faith and influenced me a lot. I remember when she couldn't come to church any more due to her not being able to walk after her first stroke, I felt a huge chunk of me missing during those Sunday services. That was what Mum and I did, every Sunday we would go and pick Nanny up from her flat in the Bouet and take her to church. Now that was over, and it broke my heart that she could no longer come and worship in her home church which meant so much to her. During that first Easter service which she could not attend I was asked to read a prayer. I did it wholeheartedly for Nanny, I wouldn't have been brave enough to do it otherwise. I was very nervous and emotional too because she could not be there to hear her granddaughter speak at the front of church. But I know she was proud of me, even if she could not comprehend what was going on. 


While at her last nursing home, just across the road from our house, I gradually began to pick up the things that Mum and the nurses would do for her, to look after her. I knew when she was stressed, upset, wanted a drink or her hankie. I began to get to grips with doing more and more for her, this was obviously meant to be as when Mum got ill I took on the role of her and began to do the things she did, making sure everything was perfect for Nanny. After Mum died I threw myself into looking after Nanny, it was my job to protect her now. Then she got ill too, I really started to be angry with both God and myself. It was a hard few months and still is very difficult to thing about, I blame myself a lot of the time, even though I know it was never my fault and I could not have done anything about it. But I know that Nanny is peaceful and resting in the loving arms of her Saviour. 


Nanny's favourite hymn is "Blessed Assurance". It was played at both hers and Mums funeral and every time I hear it, it brings tears to my eyes, I just love the words and always think of Nanny.


Here are the lyrics:

1. "Blessed assurance, Jesus is mine!
   Oh, what a foretaste of glory divine!
   Heir of salvation, purchase of God,
   Born of His Spirit, washed in His blood.
   • This is my story, this is my song,
     Praising my Savior all the day long;
     This is my story, this is my song,
     Praising my Savior all the day long.
2. Perfect submission, perfect delight,
   Visions of rapture now burst on my sight;
   Angels, descending, bring from above
   Echoes of mercy, whispers of love.
3. Perfect submission, all is at rest,
   I in my Savior am happy and blest,
   Watching and waiting, looking above,
   Filled with His goodness, lost in His love."

My favourite verse has to be the last one, speaking of finally being at rest in Jesus, and "lost in His love". Such powerful words that make me tearful every time I read them. I know that Nanny, Mum and my Grandfather are all watching me now and are proud of me, I just wish they were here with me.... But one day I'll see them again!

Happy Birthday Nanny!!! I love you lots!!!

<3 xxx

Pray Until Something Happens!

Last weekend I went to the Big Church Day Out in Sussex along with my dad, brother and a friend from church. It was incredible! Huge names like Casting Crowns, Phil Wickham, Leeland, Newworldson, Phatfish, Matt Redman and LZ7 as well as others played famous songs. There was probably about 10,000 or so people there all worshipping together. The atmosphere was incredible, we were all praising our amazing God. He was surely there among us and everyone was having a brilliant time. I loved every second of it and can't wait for next year.


I would like to share something that I experienced over the weekend. As I have mentioned in previous posts I sometimes find praying quite hard - I wander if God really hears me, because it doesn't always feel like it. How do I hear his voice? Is it him talking or me talking? These are big questions and I just long to be in his presence, especially during worship. So during one of the songs I closed my eyes and tried to think of God, to feel him. I found  myself completely surrounded by a bright white light like I was looking up into Heaven. Mum and Nanny were there and I could feel them smiling at me and I knew that they were reassuring me that they were proud of me and loved me. However during this, part of me felt like this was my imagination and that this what I wanted to see. But it continued and I heard a voice, and it may have been mine but it said something like "I love you and am always with you, and I am very proud of who you are." Now whether this was God speaking or Mum I have no idea but I'm guessing it was God. But still part of me doubted that and I was disappointed that I was doubting. I'm not ashamed to say this because I'm sure many other people have been through this at some point in their life. Anyway when I opened my eyes I knew that something had happened but I wasn't quite sure what. 


During this weekend, Phil Wickham shared this verse: 

"For where two or three are gathered together in My name, I am there in the midst of them" (Matt. 18:20). 

 I really like this verse, I don't really know why but it's comforting.


I also came across this verse: 

"This is the confidence we have in approaching God: that if we ask anything according to his will, he hears us. And if we know that he hears us—whatever we ask—we know that we have what we asked of him." (1 John 5:14-15)

This got me thinking, what about when we approach God with doubt? What if we doubt that he hears us? We still  have enough faith to approach God with our worries, problems and troubles but we don't fully believe that he hears us. When we realise he has answered our prayer we are astonished. Think about the story in Acts 12:1-16. Peter was in jail and his church were praying for him. An angel then released Peter from jail and he went to the home of the church who were praying for him. He was knocking at the door and a servant girl ran to tell everyone that Peter was there. No one believed her. When they finally saw him they were "astonished." Why did they not believe the servant girl? Because part of them doubted that God would answer their prayers. We all do that too at some point. But it is important to keep praying at this time not to give up. The more we pray, the more we see God and the less we doubt. 


We need to start expecting our prayers to be answered rather than be astonished when they are! 


As I shared before, I doubted that God was really speaking to me. But the thing is because I doubted I wasn't expecting him to. And when he did do something I was astonished and doubted. Thus the cycle began again. If we learn to take the doubt out of the equation and replace it with expectation, marvellous things will happen! I'm still working on this and I encourage you too! 

"If we don't know how or what to pray, it doesn't matter.
He does our praying in and for us, making prayer out of our wordless sighs,
our aching groans. He knows us far better than we know ourselves,
knows our pregnant condition, and keeps us present before God."
Romans 8:26, MSG

Pray, Pray, Pray!! 


God Bless
xx

Why Is It Important To Worship?

Above is a typography video that I created in After Effects a few weeks ago. I got the idea after watching various YouTube videos. When I listen to a new song I like to have the lyrics in front of me, so I can follow it, learn it and most of all take them in. I love worship songs, I have so many favourites!

For the video I chose the song Not Guilty Anymore by Aaron Keyes. When I first heard the song, it made me cry. The lyrics were just what I needed to hear at that time. I felt very guilty for things and very alone in my depression. I knew people around me cared but sometimes I just didn't feel it you know? I'd also been struggling with my faith a little, I couldn't hear God and it felt like He was so far away. I KNEW He was there, but I didn't FEEL it. However something that got me through that time was worship. Yes I found it hard to worship God when I felt He wasn't listening to me. But deep down I wanted to and knew that is what I had to do.  Music just relaxes me and I love to just sit for hours with music playing in the background. Personally I find that I am closer to God when I do so. 

When we are asked why we worship God, we usually say that He is the all powerful Creator and deserves all our praise. We take it for granted. But why is it so important to worship Him? First of all God commands that we worship Him. He wants all our attention, so that we can have an amazing relationship with Him. Imagine if you were in a relationship with someone who you loved very much, you'd want them to give you all their attention, wouldn't you? The relationship wouldn't work if only one of you loved the other. It's a two way thing.

Secondly, think about all that God is. Think of every word you can to describe Him. Think of everything He's done, all that He's made. Surely He deserves praise! No one can ever over shadow Him. Nothing compares to Him. He is worthy of our worship.

I believe that worship is very important in our relationship with God. Just as much as praying or reading the Bible is. God deserves to be worshipped, He's amazing!  

Fall into Him

Today has been a mixed day. One moment I felt fine, the next I was crying my eyes out just wanting a cuddle from Mum. I miss her so much. I can't tell you how much it hurts. I get flashbacks to the last few days and it makes me crumble... But I cry when I'm alone but I can't when I'm with people and I don't know why. Sometimes I just want to scream during worship but I can't! Lately I've really struggled with talking to God. I've not been able to pray or read the Bible or worship properly, maybe because I was still angry with Him for taking Mum and Nanny away and leaving me to deal with things on my own. I mean I'm 16 and I don't have a mum or any grandparents left. How is that fair? I need mum more than ever now for advice, comfort and love. 

I feel like I can't do this alone.

It's so hard...

I just wish she was still here and that cancer never existed...

You know when you're at home and feel so lonely but can't do anything about it? Yeah I feel like that everyday... well at some point...

I see people around me, children running to their mum's, families going out together and it rips my heart out. I can't watch...

Nothing will ever fill the void that Mum left behind but I just need to hold onto God. As hard as it is to do that sometimes, I know that He is always there.

I made the graphic picture above the other day just to show the many names and qualities of God. 

This is a very powerful song that I just came across. We need to just fall into God...

Do Not Be Ashamed Of Jesus

I found today pretty tough going. Why? Because I felt the Devil was testing me, provoking me to see when I would break. However he did not do this in a direct way but rather through my friends. Somehow we got into the discussion of religion and my faith as a Christian. The majority claim to be atheists and were firing questions at me that I did not have a clue how to answer. I wanted to stand up for Jesus but I didn't know what to say except "I don't know how to answer some of your questions but I know what I believe and that is I believe in God."

Now they weren't doing it to be horrible to me but rather to test me I think. To push me to see how far they could go. They were trying to wind me up. There were various remarks such as "If you weren't a Christian you'd have a lot more fun." If I wasn't a Christian, there would be no point to my life! Others were "the Bible's a lie", and "it's all just a crutch". I won't deny that this didn't upset me but I tried my best to ignore them or to try and prove them wrong. Which can be quite a difficult task when put on the spot! 

I've always found this to be a very difficult subject. It's all very well saying we must tell people about Christ but how? It's so hard when someone is adamant that He doesn't exist! And it can be hard to declare that you're a Christian knowing that you may get questioned about it like I have experienced. 

I am not ashamed of my faith but I do find it difficult to share it. I created the image above to declare this. When we are struggling we just have to look to God and trust that he will gives us the words to say. We won't convert people over night and going around shoving it down people's throats is definitely not the way to do it! But we can still sow seeds. Maybe something we say will stay with people and they will dwell on it, remember it and come back to you to ask you for more.

Do not be ashamed of your beliefs. Romans 10:9 says:

"If you confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved."

I remember at the start of my GCSE RE classes a few years back we were asked to write down 3 things we didn't believe in and 3 things we did believe in. Then a few of us were asked to read one out. I was first. I remember not wanting to admit that I was a Christian at first as I was worried what the other people in the class would think. So I said, "I don't believe in reincarnation." The teacher then asked me if I believed in Heaven and Hell. I said yes. At this point I was standing up, all eyes were on me. My palms were sweating and heart was racing. She then asked me if I believed in God and in Jesus. Straight away I said "yes". She concluded with making me state I was a Christian. When I said it the verse above jumped into my head. My heart was still racing but in a good way not a nervous way. I had done it. I had admitted what I believed in front of all my classmates. I knew that God was cheering me on and so pleased that I had done it. I knew it. Every time we declare Jesus as Lord and Saviour there is a huge celebration in Heaven. I left the lesson feeling very proud of what I'd done. 

"But he said, "I am not crazy, most excellent Festus, but boldly declare words of truth and reasonableness." Acts 26:25.

We need to boldly declare the truth and not be ashamed to stand up for what we believe in. We will be rewarded in Heaven when we get there.  It's hard but God is with us all the way. He knows what we go through. Jesus was ridiculed to, they put Him on a cross because they saw Him as a threat. But if He hadn't gone through all that pain, where would we be today? 


God Bless

He Is Our Shepherd and We Are His Sheep

He Is Our Shepherd and We Are His Sheep

Today in Guernsey is Liberation Day, the day when 67 years ago the Channel Islands were freed. Every Guern celebrates Lib Day with huge enthusiasm. There was a lot going on today and I just love how the day brings everyone together.

Along with my dad and brother, I went for a walk around St Saviours and the reservoir. It is a beautiful but tiring walk. Towards the end of the walk we came to a field full of sheep and lambs. Luckily I managed to capture some amazing shots of them, like the one above. Seeing all these sheep reminded me of Psalm 23:

"The Lord is my shepherd, 

I shall not want; 

He makes me lie down in green pastures. 

He leads me beside still waters; 

He restores my soul. 

He leads me in paths of righteousness 

for His name's sake. 

Even though I walk through the valley 

of the shadow of death, 

I fear no evil; 

for You are with me; 

Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me. 

Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me 

all the days of my life; 

and I shall dwell in the house of the 

Lord forever."

I love this passage, as do many people. It was read at my nanny's funeral. It's just so comforting. It reminds me that God is with me and protecting me, therefore "I fear no evil". Who are we to fear when we have the Mighty God leading us?!

There is also another verse which is incredible and just makes me feel so safe:

"He tends his flock like a shepherd: He gathers the lambs in his arms and carries them close to his heart; he gently leads those that have young." Isaiah 40:11

Even though sometimes we don't feel it, God is holding us close to his heart, He loves us and just wants to care for us. We need to put our trust in him totally. I know in the past few weeks that this has been particularly hard for me but I know that He is the Way and that He loves me very much. 

God Bless 

Friends Are A Gift From God

"I'll be your friend for a lifetime

Against the wind and the rain of every season

Won't walk away in the hard times

I will be your friend

I'm saying I will be your friend."

I Will Be Your Friend - Michael W. Smith

Today I had an awesome time with my friend Leah from Australia. She's been over for the past 4 weeks along with her family. I've had some amazing times with her but sadly she's leaving on Thursday. I wanted to do something special with her before she went, so we walked down to Fermain, had an ice cream and came  back to mine for Chinese and a film. But it went quickly and too soon I had to say goodbye with a tear in my eye. I won't see her for another 2 years or so and will miss her heaps! Leah is an incredible friend and I am truly grateful to God for bringing us together. She's my sister and I love her to bits!

Proverbs 20:6 says: 

"Many will say they are loyal friends, but who can find one who is truly reliable?"

What this is saying is that good friends are hard to find. I believe that God brings each and every person we encounter into our lives for a reason. Whether that is encouragement, comfort, guidance, love, friendship or to learn, it is all planned by God. He works through people to speak to us and show us the right way to go. I have some brilliant friends who love me and want the best for me. I know for certain that God bought them into my life to help me. Through my struggles with grieving, depression and anxiety I can always count that someone will be there for me. Although sometimes I don't feel like speaking I just love knowing that they are there!

I have an amazing friend in Leah and have truly been blessed to have her in my life! It's just a shame that we live so far away but that just strengthens our friendship! 

And of course God is always our Friend. He's our Best Friend and we can always count on Him to be there to listen to us and comfort us. 

My challenge to you is to go up to one of your friends and just tell them how much you aprecciate them and how much they mean to you. It will make both of your days special!

Thank you to all my friends and thank you Leah for just being you! For being awesome and an amazing friend, I love you loads and will miss you soooo much!!!

Thought this video was perfect for this post, hope you like it <3

God Bless

God is all powerful!

Today is Bank Holiday Monday. We went for a walk around Grande Rocques and Port Soif. The weather wasn't great, quite cloudy but I got some very cool shots of the clouds. Above is a panoramic photo that I took to show the contrast of the dark and light sky. I just love looking at God's creation. Isn't it amazing? Days like these remind me that God is all powerful, after all look at His amazing work! Clouds are an amazing creation, they always look beautiful. Whether they are dark and stormy like this or white and fluffy!

Jeremiah 10:12 says: 

"But God made the earth by his power;
    he founded the world by his wisdom 
    and stretched out the heavens by his understanding."

How incredible is that?! I was at New Wine Guernsey this weekend and helping in Rock Solid - primary age kids. We were doing all about creation. It was amazing to get a fresh look at it. We all know the creation story but sometimes we need reminding. One thing that really stuck out for me was how if we want to make a cake we need ingredients but God created the Universe out of nothing! He didn't have ingredients, he didn't need them! He is the Almighty God! Nothing is impossible for Him. Now that is power! 


Not only did He create everything from nothing but all He had to do was speak and it would appear:

"And God said, “Let there be light,” and there was light." Genesis 1:3

After we had learnt this, we went on to discover that even though God is MASSIVE in comparison to us, he cares about us sooooo much. He created us and loves us! One of the songs that we did was called "God's Love Is Big". Here are the lyrics:


God who made the universe
The earth, the sun, the moon and stars
Has a place in His heart for me
From the beginning to the end
God will always be my friend
So I can jump and shout 'cos God loves me

God's love is big, God's love is great
God's love is fab and He's my mate
God's love surrounds me everyday
And I love to sing and say
God's love is big, God's love is strong
God's love goes on and on and on
God's love surrounds me everyday
And I love to sing and say...God loves me WEHAY!

This song made me smile so much over the weekend because it is just so true and very catchy! We did some great actions too. 

The point of this post is really to encourage you that whatever you may be going through, God is right there with you and He is MASSIVE compared to whatever you are going through. He has a special place for you in His heart and loves you very much. I have been through some pretty rough months but New Wine has totally refreshed my love for God. I know that He is all powerful and can do anything! NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE!

Hello!

Hello, welcome to my blog. I decided to start a blog to just generally share my thoughts. I love graphic design and photography and would love to share more of my work. Generally I do "Christian Graphic Design" like backgrounds for my laptop and adding scripture into my photos. I have also done a lyric video in After Effects which I will be posting at some point later. I really enjoy doing graphics as I love to see the final product, even if it takes hours to do, I am proud of it. It's something I've created.

I haven't had the easiest of times lately, my mum died of cancer 6 months ago and my nanny died too 2 months later. I am dealing with anxiety, panic attacks and depression at the moment as well as issues with my faith. By this I mean that lately I've been finding it hard to fully put my trust in God. I've found it hard to pray and read the Bible and really feel loved by Him. I aim to be very honest in this blog so that it will help me deal with my emotions and how I am feeling. I also hope that I can encourage other teenagers who may be in the same situation. 

I go to Les Camps Methodist Church and help out a lot with the children's group - Lightbulb which I love doing and get a lot out of every week. 

Anyway now you know a little about me... Hope you enjoy the blog :)